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[00:00:00] the rock is on a little bit of something. I guess, they know I guess it's like 50 plus in that big.

[00:00:11] Hey, look, all that can't be just some more genetics you know that man. Look,

[00:00:16] you better know your role and shut your mouth. Oh, I know my, I know my role and I was never seen

[00:00:21] until his face. And then again, even I'm not saying it's a bad thing. I plan to fuck you,

[00:00:27] take it to stop the road and shit like that when I get that age. So I'm not saying it's a bad thing.

[00:00:32] I think I said this one is pocket. Yeah, you want to take the top road and yeah, fuck

[00:00:40] everybody welcome back to another episode of the accordion of Wes podcast as always we got D low.

[00:00:46] Yep, you got beat law, the devil's son-in-law in the building.

[00:00:50] Yeah, I mean, why not we got me Wes playing all the West.

[00:00:59] But yeah, we're talking about we are talking about currently behind the scenes.

[00:01:05] Of course, wrestling and the wrestling we grew up on the attitude there.

[00:01:11] Yeah, like that. What was I about to say? You were talking about

[00:01:15] um, uh, damn it. I don't think it that fast. How DX and their whole promo when they all come out?

[00:01:24] Oh yeah, yeah, I remember now. Yeah, you said it's like six. Yeah, yeah, yeah. So you would think

[00:01:29] right with uh, suck my dick being prevalent in the black community. It'll be some black

[00:01:36] wrestlers that would do it. However, when we were coming up, the black wrestlers was pimps.

[00:01:46] Well, in the attitude era, in the actual era, they were either pimps or it was the rock.

[00:01:52] What a rock. What a world strongest man. Yeah, world strongest man. Like the nation of

[00:01:57] domination who was supposed to be the nation of Islam at the time. That's how you know,

[00:02:01] Vissa Man is a racist mother fucker. Yep. Like oh yeah, we're gonna put you, you know what?

[00:02:08] We're gonna start this whole thing and you can be the nation of domination kind of like the

[00:02:14] nation of Islam. And you're gonna have this young mentor, the rock, you know,

[00:02:20] a minty, the rock aka Elijah Muhammad and Malcolm X.

[00:02:26] Unfortunately, Malcolm X, you know, was was killed and the whole thing but he did span off

[00:02:30] and started his own thing and then the rock just betrays for root and he becomes a leader

[00:02:34] to the nation of domination. Yeah. Mine oh my. Hey man, that was a time. That was a time.

[00:02:43] Hey look, I've been enjoying the rock being back and WWE. I know I keep fucking seeing clips

[00:02:50] and I have yet to watch a fucking a episode. I said I'm going with a facade you shirt on,

[00:02:58] got the chains on the shit. I'm like, come on man. When I say he is, you know, in the wrestling

[00:03:02] terms for anyone as listening, when I say he is blurring the lines between healing,

[00:03:09] you know, between real and scripted. He is blurring the line because he's like, you know on the

[00:03:15] ball of TK, I will take that title from you and he had to say, see, I'm blurring the lines there.

[00:03:21] That was on his Instagram. But it's one of them things as much.

[00:03:29] And I was talking to some mind. Does anybody know how long the contract is for?

[00:03:34] I mean, it's up to WrestleMania because you remember the original. So here's what the rocks

[00:03:40] said. He said, you know, they've been building up to this for years of the Rock vs. Roman Reigns

[00:03:47] for the head of the table of the similar dynasty. Yeah. Yeah. Like so much that even in the

[00:03:54] Rocks TV show young rock when there was like, oh look, future WWE superstar Roman Reigns,

[00:04:00] like, hey, we should fight you on a wrestling. He said, oh no, I'm asking that big can only be

[00:04:05] a WrestleMania. So it was like bits and pieces he was putting here and there. Yeah. Yeah.

[00:04:10] And so when he came out on day one for day one January 1st, he was like, all you know,

[00:04:19] I'm out here in this city. Should I sit at a table? Should I sit at a booth? Should I sit at a bar?

[00:04:24] Should I sit at the head of the table? Just kind of gauging. Do you really want the Rock,

[00:04:28] Roman Reigns? I mean, the place erupted. And literally he come, you know, Cody wins,

[00:04:34] you know, the Royal Rumble. Cody, you know, I was a, you know, Seth was a, he was supposed to go face

[00:04:40] Seth. Seth is like, oh, come fight me. Why do you want to fight the paper champion,

[00:04:45] ball of ball, whatever. He comes up there and says, I'm not going to challenge you, Roman.

[00:04:49] I'm going to challenge you but not this time. And then the rock comes out in the place,

[00:04:53] explodes. Okay. That on that after that Friday, on Saturday, the whole internet just goes into

[00:05:02] a frenzy about like why? Why Cody couldn't do it? Why the rock kind of come up. But if you look at

[00:05:07] who really was saying it, it wasn't, um, it wasn't us. I hear you. And it wasn't, and it wasn't,

[00:05:16] and it wasn't wrestling fans from back in the day who had the nostalgia of knowing that would

[00:05:20] like if you're a shot shot nerd, asses up. This is what I was worried. And so, and so you know,

[00:05:27] they had it, you know, when that happens, the WWE instead of being who they are, they are,

[00:05:34] they are reactive to stun versus being all right, we can draw this and make this a big thing

[00:05:42] because when a rock comes out, the rock is still getting some of the biggest old Asians that

[00:05:47] you can hear. So I'm like, so when is he not going to get some of the biggest old Asians?

[00:05:51] And man, even when he's a bag, he goes, yeah, I'm gonna say like this. So he's a fast folkold and hurt.

[00:06:01] Roman Ransold, a rock.

[00:06:03] A rock. You know, we eat on the wrong. Ransold, I will say if we want to populate,

[00:06:08] as far as popularly, we want some of our popularity as far as us and what low us and maybe

[00:06:15] low ahead of us, I will say the rock has surpassed Hawkhoge. The only thing that Hawkhoge

[00:06:26] will ever be better than a rock at is in their current time when they were relevant. Santa

[00:06:36] N word. What? I will say, you said me out but I couldn't help it.

[00:06:50] I would say this. That's not funny, but it's funny. Oh, man.

[00:06:56] I was a rock-hoggin at his time was the biggest face in sports entertainment, okay.

[00:07:03] Face being a good guy, okay. Well, he was a WCW and his gimmick had gone dry of him being a good

[00:07:11] dry and he became Hollywood open. He came the biggest heel was the bad guy in the industry. And I

[00:07:18] think to this day that is the biggest heel turn and the big, he has been the biggest heel

[00:07:26] in sports entertainment of all times. From somebody who was, you know, Ric Flair was always

[00:07:33] anti-or bad guy. He was never a good guy. He was always either in the middle or he was a bad guy.

[00:07:41] But Ric Flair, you know, he, you know, the car driving women getting, listen, listen, listen, listen,

[00:07:49] listen. Ric Flair was a little before our time, right? But he was still like in his prime but he was

[00:07:54] still the man, everything Ric Flair putting down back then and you know. And when I actually seen

[00:08:03] who he was, man, that's all me, man. The type, him, the macho, Randy, macho man said,

[00:08:11] just the type of trash talk that they would do. I was like, this, you can, this shit is gold.

[00:08:17] Gold.

[00:08:18] Right.

[00:08:19] What?

[00:08:22] I will say Hulk Hogan's thing, he was big when he was wrestling and I think even with him being in WCW,

[00:08:30] I felt like he was still bigger than the rock and stone cold. And I want to say that,

[00:08:34] I say that very loosely because only because when, when the NW was really popping,

[00:08:41] he was huge. And like you never saw Hulk Hogan as a bad guy ever.

[00:08:47] And when you, when he became a bad guy, that's why I was like his stuff went from like,

[00:08:51] I do, you need to retire to like, can you do it?

[00:08:53] Let's see, let's see, let's see what this goes. But I will say that once Hulk Hogan's time was done

[00:09:01] and once it was really just the new generation of stone cold, the rock, even Brett

[00:09:09] because Brett, when he came when it's LNW, the end of Hulk Hogan's run,

[00:09:16] Brett was still a big name. And Sean Michael was still a big name even though he

[00:09:20] you know with the drugs and everything and the mental health he was going through.

[00:09:24] Oh, that's the auto thing. You know, the rock, when it was time for WWE to really take over,

[00:09:33] the rock and stone cold elevate each other where they are. And now they're two of the biggest

[00:09:39] names in sports entertainment, and they don't even have the step into a ring like Stone Cold's last

[00:09:44] match was he fought Kevin Owens probably like a year or so ago two years, give it a, Kevin Owens

[00:09:51] like I want to fight you stone cold, and you know, Stone Cold ain't fought in years because of his neck

[00:09:56] and he went out there and he took bumps, bumps being he, he took moves from people you know,

[00:10:02] he's getting some wrestling technology. I know it was heel and face and baby face out of the

[00:10:09] eye. So when you take a bump so like let's say Sean Michael is years you were super kick right?

[00:10:15] He's going to hit you a lower bit. But you got to sell it. So when you sell it and you take

[00:10:21] the bump is when you hit the mat. So you hit the mat, we got to take the bump and like that's why

[00:10:26] when you're in a ring with somebody even though you might not like them, you gotta be professional

[00:10:31] and you put in your suppose to protect each other in the ring. So when someone's doing the move

[00:10:35] of the top rope and you see they're going to fuck they shit up, you kind of put yourself on a line

[00:10:40] that's trying to make sure they don't get that full break day neck. Right. That's what you kind of do.

[00:10:47] And it's it's it's art. You know, I'm not going to say wrestling is fake because they get real

[00:10:52] injuries and we've seen people down. Yeah, I love not even that shouldn't even be a thing of

[00:10:56] conversation. Right. It's interesting. I don't care. I don't even fuck. I don't know.

[00:11:05] Really good because it's like no soap opera. Exactly. Do you talk this shit in the U-Fight?

[00:11:11] How it supposed to be? I was supposed to be. We ain't got to shoot this. And you want to know

[00:11:19] if you want to know what, it's a lot better than fucking reality TV. No TV. I shit is way better than

[00:11:26] this shit. Yeah. True. Well, no why because I'm not going to go to work in RKLs nobody. But

[00:11:33] that's what you want to RKL somebody out of nowhere. I mean listen, I forgot who sold the best RKL but

[00:11:45] the mother fucker he I forget his name. He basically it was like he stood on his head after

[00:11:52] got RKL and then filled in and I can't remember who the fuck it is. But he didn't stand on his head

[00:11:57] but you kind of get what I'm saying. Like it was like that and then dropped down. I was like this is

[00:12:00] some bush. No, I wasn't RKL it was it was a stunner. Was it a stunner? Oh, it was a stunner.

[00:12:09] It was a stunner. He got stunned and then obviously you go to this head and then he threw it out.

[00:12:13] It was a rock. No, no, the rock flips up. No, the rock flips up and he oh no, he hands lands. Yeah.

[00:12:20] I can't think. I can't I gotta say. I know it wasn't Triple H but not anything.

[00:12:25] But you know what I've been watching recently is the Dark Side of the Ring. Okay,

[00:12:31] I'm watching Dark Side of the Ring. I was kind of curious about some of this stuff and I didn't

[00:12:37] believe how many of those dudes killed themselves, drug overdose. What I think it is. I think it's CTE.

[00:12:47] Do you think so? Yeah. Back in the old days. Yeah. They were taking bumps for real. They were

[00:12:54] taking all the big bumps and a lot a lot of them but you know what a lot of them did say it was the

[00:12:58] culture of wrestling that to drink and party and do drink and party and do in drugs. And I think it

[00:13:05] took a toll on a lot of it will be in a lot and a lot of they're like I guess in my waifu

[00:13:10] call a lot of mental health because that's really all just your mind and shit. It also

[00:13:14] is a point where like if you're not doing it, you feel useless and then if you're especially

[00:13:20] in an industry like that where everything is built on how the fans feel about you.

[00:13:26] If you no longer getting a push or you're no longer being shit by the fans, it could take a toll

[00:13:30] because like, damn that's my money. Like what the fuck I'm supposed to do and you going to this

[00:13:34] depression, you going to a lot of things. You also got to think about it that when they start

[00:13:38] also that's your first hit of the drug or fame. So you already got this this this adoration and

[00:13:47] and people praising you and shit like that. So some people can be addictive in itself. And

[00:13:54] you also got to think about the type of people that want not the type but some of the people

[00:13:58] that want to do that stuff maybe they, they come from a place where they like a child or

[00:14:04] where they don't get a they didn't get a lot of love or they didn't get a lot of confidence built

[00:14:09] into them or they always felt like they're trying to prove themselves and they go to something

[00:14:13] like this and they actually proven themselves and people like it and then they don't like it.

[00:14:18] That's a huge hug down and you're already like this and you're already doing drugs and drinking

[00:14:22] a shit. That's tough. That's super tough. Oh yeah definitely. That one.

[00:14:30] Super duper tough. Yeah but I mean, it should happen though. I mean, it sucks that a lot of these guys

[00:14:38] died or killed themselves or or or on speed and shit like that. And like the last one

[00:14:46] the last one that was played was a junkyard dog. And you know, the junkyard dog was big in the cell

[00:14:52] and it was somehow he was he was always taking like add or I guess the equivalent to add or all

[00:14:59] speed shit like that. That he went the last thing he did was went to go see his daughter and he was

[00:15:06] like yeah, I'm gonna drive back to North Carolina from like Georgia and they said the next morning

[00:15:12] they found out he had crashed his car and I'm like, it's crazy. You know, the amount of wrestlers

[00:15:19] that that that dies is crazy. Yeah. Like even like even crispy and wild when he killed him

[00:15:27] he killed his family and himself like it's just crazy. Yeah. So I got a girl. Yeah.

[00:15:34] And Lars what happened then? In Lars' heart calls a heart attack and stuff like that,

[00:15:39] it's just crazy but the life like could have been drug. It could have been a multitude of things

[00:15:45] but there's a lot of people who died a whole lot early like even like all our hearts so you know

[00:15:50] when he dropped down from the thing and they used the wrong one. So when I looked at that one

[00:15:57] that one fucked me up. I was like damn he could still be alive today but

[00:16:01] so you know how like when you clamp on the stuff like the little when you like climbing shit

[00:16:08] they used a they used the auto release clamp after a certain weight. So imagine you're free falling

[00:16:17] down and you meet the weight it's gonna release and so he fell to his death on errors from the WDF

[00:16:27] at that time. Oh shit. And like in the funny part, not not saying the funny part but the

[00:16:34] interesting part of it is is that if he was like they were like you want to try this out beforehand

[00:16:40] if he had tried it up beforehand he would have died before him because they changed the clamps

[00:16:44] and that's why he wanted him to try it out. So he would have died before the show versus during

[00:16:50] the show. So it's like you got no experts to tell you that for him to propel down they need

[00:16:59] the Mesa Oda is something one of that he can you know that he needs that he should be hitting his

[00:17:04] back to get the auto get the manual release versus it auto release and once it has attention it has

[00:17:11] like it's crazy like the dumb shit they were doing so it's kind of like now like

[00:17:18] I don't see how I don't know the business like that inside it out but I would want to stay

[00:17:25] sober just so I can protect myself every day that I go to work. You'd be surprised man like in order

[00:17:31] I said I would want to I'm not saying that they are sober or not so where I'm just saying me first

[00:17:37] I'm not saying they aren't either I'm just saying when it comes down to being on that end crowd

[00:17:42] if for someone that put on a good show with you they gotta know you down and that's the

[00:17:47] cult that was an industry back then it was like I don't know about this new guy he green like

[00:17:53] let's say when you come in we attack him we get put up against some other tax teams were

[00:17:57] jobbers jobbers meaning we're we're in there to lose and make the other guys look good that's what

[00:18:04] they'll go on and beat the shit out of you and then they expect you not to complain but if

[00:18:10] you get in good with them and you know you hang out with them do a couple lines of coke cans

[00:18:15] drink or whatever you know what you look okay yeah I fuck with you know what when we get a chance

[00:18:25] we're gonna put you over putting you over meaning we're gonna let you win you know I'm saying

[00:18:30] no but you know you know you know you start getting some some run we'll put you over and we'll

[00:18:36] drop the bell seed like it's things that they do like based on the culture of interacting with each

[00:18:42] other so it's always interesting because all that stuff is always backing forth it's always what do

[00:18:47] you call that table switch yeah I'll tell about the belts and stuff like yeah like

[00:18:52] very well just based on politics and popularity and let's say you let's say you

[00:18:58] you're the world champion right now you're the most popular person there I'm just a newbie but I'm

[00:19:02] getting a real big like push because the crowd loves me you might be like hey look man he just

[00:19:08] got here a year and a half ago like you tell me I gotta drop the belt to him right now I don't

[00:19:16] that's how gold man fuck this nigga nah nah I ain't dropping the belt on boy if I'm with

[00:19:22] well if I drop the belt to him I still want to look strong so I want to disqualification or

[00:19:27] I want I want to lose by someone interfering you know I just kind of like that's kind of like

[00:19:33] how movie or contract stuff be structured when it comes to like I mean they was you know like

[00:19:39] before example I'm pretty sure you heard the situation with the fast and furious with the

[00:19:44] rock young Vin Diesel either one I wanted to lose on screen neither one I wanted to take a certain

[00:19:50] amount of punches to the face right they both had to look you know you know what I wanted to look

[00:19:55] and it just like how the fuck you said this fight scene up then easy we know that's not real

[00:20:06] alive I don't know what we know now he's real like it would speak down you know what I'm saying yeah

[00:20:26] very very fucking true

[00:20:27] good you know

[00:20:33] and a roof and and and and and the rock look like he was awesome steroids when he did that face

[00:20:39] see with the rock is the rock is come on out you don't think the rock is on a little bit of something

[00:20:48] I guess they know I guess yes he's like 50 plus and that big

[00:20:53] hey look all that can't be just some more genetics you know that man look man you better know

[00:21:00] your role and shut your mouth your mouth oh I know my I know my role and I would never say it to his face

[00:21:06] and then again even I'm not saying it's a bad thing I plan to fucking be taking testosterone

[00:21:12] and shit like that when I get that age so I'm not saying it's a bad thing I think I've said

[00:21:16] this one is part yes yeah you want to take the rock Ronan yeah fuck what a fuck

[00:21:24] why the fuck not and I'm not saying they get huge just mainly to like you know as a what do you

[00:21:30] call it as a therapeutic you know how like woman will be taking estrogen pills she'll

[00:21:34] I mean I would assume it's pills but you get what I mean like yeah no I get

[00:21:39] well why I got to look all for real this shit like it's 60 no let me have the 30-year-old body

[00:21:45] that's all I'm saying yeah so do you think depending on the industry that's in in life you know

[00:21:51] industry yeah you think it takes a toll on you like mentally and physically emotionally you think

[00:21:57] if it doesn't matter what it is it just takes a toll on you or yeah because you're always you

[00:22:03] always rather be doing sometimes not always but yes every every industry has its

[00:22:10] every industry has its stressors or things that kind of

[00:22:14] uh

[00:22:16] but a totally yeah you might like what you do but there's certain things that

[00:22:21] put it totally yeah let's just like let's just say to NBA

[00:22:28] as an example um yeah those those guys what are WBA those you know athletes in general they

[00:22:36] love the game right whatever game whatever whatever uh supported is they love the game they'll

[00:22:40] die playing they love to be competitive but it's a multitude of things that

[00:22:45] fuck and put them over the edge when it comes the when it comes to life like we still don't

[00:22:51] know what the fuck Westbrook was going through right I mean how many basketball players you

[00:22:57] like damn Ben Sim is like yeah just what the fuck going on with him Westbrook what the fuck going

[00:23:02] on with him I can't be always hurt you know it can't yeah it's not I it's something happened

[00:23:08] and it's none of our business but that's uh that's uh that's an example of I'm pretty sure something

[00:23:16] I'm pretty sure it's something mentally or just like an emotional health or whatever I don't

[00:23:21] want to keep saying mental health but just like it's emotional well-being ain't what it is and

[00:23:25] you know emotional well-being ain't what it is sometimes you just don't perform the way you should

[00:23:31] other people they block that shit out and they going through something emotional and they

[00:23:35] perform super well at work that's what you get to work a whole looks and they just try not to

[00:23:42] you know deal with or whatever is going on and I've been in that situation where it's just like

[00:23:48] I've been super stressed or something bothering me and for some reason it makes me work harder

[00:23:54] right that's a weird thing for me to have but I mean it's definitely not the most common thing

[00:24:03] I've ever heard before but it makes complete sense like it's not the most common thing here

[00:24:09] like digging deeper into work when you when you like something at home or

[00:24:13] the family situation going on I mean I've heard you have to perform an example of that

[00:24:22] but I've never not necessarily like oh yeah like someone actually saying like oh yeah I uh

[00:24:28] I just dove into work more because shit was going on in the house by a blah I've never heard it you know

[00:24:35] personally hearing it but you never okay you never personally heard it yeah yeah person

[00:24:40] hey I've always seen it on tv or something else where I did that I've done it I've personally

[00:24:49] heard someone say yo I'm just focusing on this to keep my mind off of it

[00:24:54] because it's kind of like when you're alone with your thoughts it eats up at you more and you

[00:24:58] don't like well for me I could only speak for me it would eat up at me more or I feel like I was just

[00:25:05] not spiraling but more or less like uh I didn't want to become um depressed I was sad

[00:25:13] but I didn't want to become depressed and just like we'll fuck it you know what I mean like

[00:25:17] I'm gonna just sit here and not eat I said no it was crazy not I still wasn't eating

[00:25:21] I was not eating I was not eating I was working hard as shit because I was just trying to keep

[00:25:26] my mind off of it right but still sad so I don't know what that was about but yeah perfect example

[00:25:33] Kobe you don't think when he dropped 80 and he was going R.P. and this is all with respect I'm

[00:25:38] not bashing him this just be reflecting when he dropped 80 and he was going through that uh

[00:25:44] that case stuff yeah a lot of that was just him working that shit out in his head oh no

[00:25:51] believe it because I remember him I don't know who it was that was uh doing up I want to say

[00:25:56] they were doing the podcast but it was so much how they were on the bus talking oh yeah you

[00:26:00] know I gotta be focused for this and he like took his head from his phone's off like imagine

[00:26:06] having a you got 20 on your head and you still go out there and put up 40 that's focus and I'm

[00:26:11] like oh shit yeah you you going to court and you got 30 on your head while still trying to

[00:26:19] make sure your team was a championship because they made a big deal about when Kobe was dropping

[00:26:25] out on points like it was like if he was in court that day he dropped a 40 piece yeah

[00:26:31] like it was it was like unheard of at that time like oh you dropped that's an example that's an

[00:26:39] example of you know what like I just it's kind of like you got to get that stress off like a

[00:26:44] mother fucker that's just in the gym all that's why I'm not in the gym all the time but that's remember

[00:26:49] I used to not I used to I would say that I have to like wear myself out because if I don't

[00:26:56] I'll just be wound up and the gym is the or working out as like the perfect thing for me like I

[00:27:01] don't smoke I don't drink uh I drink but you know what I mean I don't want those things don't do

[00:27:08] anything for me for stress what's it like to get away it is literally like all right how do I

[00:27:13] exert this energy so my mind can shut the fuck up so my body could be like well emotionally I

[00:27:20] could just kind of be like even uh be on an even level and just kind of like uh I guess breathe

[00:27:28] I need a part I need to get that checked out or I was talking about my wife about someone she

[00:27:32] was like you probably need to talk to a psychologist not a not a uh not a psychologist yeah yeah

[00:27:38] not a therapist but a psychologist it's the kind of see like if I'm 80 or something I'm like

[00:27:43] well I got some borderline shit going on with me but I've always been I've noticed I was that

[00:27:49] ways when like my early 20s early 20s like I got to be physically active.

[00:27:57] I got to man you don't want your wife talking about some you can't get your man dingo up you know what I'm

[00:28:05] what does that even mean I mean I know what that means but that's not what I'm saying

[00:28:09] I'm just saying man that's not what I'm saying I don't

[00:28:16] I'm saying when I say I don't know who was going on in your life

[00:28:20] when I say physically and this is one thing I've learned about me what for my

[00:28:24] movements my mental wellbeing emotion health and shit mental and for shit

[00:28:29] I so some people I was like I wasn't interested in something or I might have been reading it

[00:28:36] they say that usually people that have that issue it's like a uh

[00:28:41] it's like something left some type of a genetic imprint left on us

[00:28:47] like back in caveman days or something like that where

[00:28:52] we was always on the go and we had to be moving and sometimes you being stagnant means

[00:28:56] that you was probably going to die because something was going to eat you

[00:28:59] well you wasn't going to excuse me well you wasn't going to find any food for the day to feed your

[00:29:04] family and shit like that right so some people they literally uh get sick physically

[00:29:12] most people get fit fit sick sick physically when they're you know sedentary like they not moving

[00:29:18] and I don't want anything to just eat and come along watching tv countraux say those shit like

[00:29:23] some people get sick emotionally and physically when they don't do any physical activity that is me

[00:29:32] like the emotional shit star came you know I know my brain start going all over the place

[00:29:37] like what the fuck is about I'm like let me get on this fucking treadmill

[00:29:41] let me go take a walk let me do some push ups see I don't get like that um I get more

[00:29:49] of I end up more I guess in a grand scheme I end up more or less being more um

[00:30:01] I think if I didn't exercise I feel like I can't really breathe

[00:30:06] like I feel like I'm just not doing what I'm supposed to do it along with um

[00:30:12] um then I feel like I ain't getting enough uh energy you should say the least so I usually

[00:30:20] feel like I can't breathe or I can't sleep or um when it's time to do to do

[00:30:30] I feel like it's some issues and a lot of time I feel like it's more a lot of times I do feel

[00:30:35] like it's more mental and it is actual actually physical but a lot of times that's kind of how I feel

[00:30:43] when it comes to like not exercising um so a lot of times that's why I always that's why I exercise

[00:30:50] so much because I'm like you know if I can if I can stay away from the blue pill as long as possible

[00:30:58] you know shit I'm doing something right to you know that uh to I guess in the grand scheme

[00:31:09] make sure I'm not having to use it because that that shit takes away that shit takes away

[00:31:13] and tearing your body too because it's forcing the you know it's forcing the blood into your uh

[00:31:22] to that area versus um

[00:31:29] versus it being natural when you you know that you're in good heart health you know saying so

[00:31:34] that's why a lot of times I'm that's why you know that's my wife like she like why are you always

[00:31:37] working out so much uh because I want to make sure that if I ever got to use this shit it's

[00:31:43] in leader life like all right let's see how your heart is mr smith all right well

[00:31:48] shit you shouldn't eat all that goddamn fried chicken and shit is it thing I don't ever I don't

[00:31:53] ever want to use it I don't either that is my goal it's a never it's a never have to use it

[00:32:01] that is that is that is my goal like I don't want to have to ever use it and if I get to a point

[00:32:08] where I have to use it and it's later in life like I'm assuming that 80 it don't matter how much

[00:32:16] by every you're taking he did he you just won't be able to nah fucking on 20 Montana the kid

[00:32:26] 80 really yeah maybe like last year I don't know that I don't know but you know

[00:32:36] his girlfriend his girlfriend I might be his wife was girlfriend it's like 30 years from

[00:32:41] so like it might she might be like 20's on I don't remember yeah but you know what I always

[00:32:46] feel like Albertine was always in good shape he's 80 you will you will the good y'all that cocaine listen

[00:32:57] okay he doesn't do cocaine we talk about Tony Montana yeah for you all fucking out in the bad guy

[00:33:06] yeah but um Tony Montana man look he's he's a he's a cult legend man come on

[00:33:16] it's telling you yeah yeah put some respect on his name I am that's what say that's what say okay

[00:33:23] it's safe whoo that's what say hey do no one you worry like oh if it is hell yeah we have a good

[00:33:29] fucking conversation you know how fucking pissed off I would be man fuck yeah but um yeah man it's

[00:33:39] it sounds like you have some a different a variation of what I'm talking about that's one thing

[00:33:45] I have learned about my I have learned about myself for the comes of the mental health and the lesson

[00:33:53] what yeah let's do myself is more or less like yo don't go a week without exerting energy

[00:34:01] because all I'm gonna do is that stress from work gets in me family shit gets in me uh my

[00:34:07] like I'm so hard on myself my personal goals I'm gonna let that shit get to me

[00:34:11] cuz like yo don't go a week without it yeah you can't like even even on days where I don't

[00:34:18] have my best workout times I still try my best to get in there like

[00:34:27] like I don't want to go without working out is it's it's rough you know

[00:34:35] it's rough sometimes and you just got a kind do it so but I mean I do it for a different reason

[00:34:41] most because I don't want to be on that pill I mean that's a good fucking reason though as

[00:34:48] as I sit here and drink one without the whole that would definitely it would definitely you know

[00:34:55] you know alcohol and smoking will definitely get you there cuz it you know yeah what they what

[00:35:03] about other lessons one of our other things is more or less like um like it's okay I'm starting

[00:35:11] to come to terms with it speaking of blue pills that it's okay uh to use uh supplements to help

[00:35:19] with mental health when I say supplements don't necessarily mean a blue pill but you know maybe a

[00:35:26] little uh some gummies in there or stuff like that like I just I just started taking um I just

[00:35:34] started taking ashwagandha again and um I would like to say it's working like I'm like the part

[00:35:43] time job ain't as stressful when people are being like total assholes right not total I really

[00:35:49] had no assholes when they're being totally helpless and defenseless quote-unquote like that

[00:35:54] ship is feel like don't have a work computer but I know um so my aunt she um she suffers from

[00:36:04] depression um so you know and you know and me my wife we always have discussions about this

[00:36:14] because um is always is it's always I want to say it's not necessarily me against her

[00:36:23] it's just my views against her views versus uh walking the merge you know versus

[00:36:30] like in my head it and not that I don't and I know mental health is real it is but like I have to

[00:36:40] tell sometimes I said when I was growing up a lot of time they were just trying to put niggas on

[00:36:45] pills all the time yeah you know just oh you can't you you decide not to focus this class guess what

[00:36:53] ADHD and so it's not that I have some sort of like oh it's not real thing to it it's more

[00:37:05] less I feel like you can't just classify everybody as being this way when they're not

[00:37:14] you know it's like next to you know everyone's oh well you you got ADHD you got this you got

[00:37:21] that you know by a blind it's like well well shit we all get ADHD then why we didn't that means

[00:37:27] we should be putting no one on any sort of pills right at right in the end of grand scheme of it

[00:37:36] and I think and respire that's what I kind of learned like even like being an adult is like as much

[00:37:43] as I try to be you know you want to be sensitive to people's um you know how they how they are I'm

[00:37:50] like you know I just just mean person I just as much as I believe that mental health was real

[00:37:57] I'm like I don't think that everyone has on these pills and everything that's making that body out of

[00:38:02] balance needs to be on right I'm a I'm with you on that too even though I just said uh supplements for

[00:38:13] me like or just uh stuff that's one of assists I think is different and my business are a little bit

[00:38:20] different you right so right like like because you're not taking a you're not taking a narcotic or

[00:38:25] something like that but I had a cousin who you know she let me get closer to my

[00:38:33] I had a cousin who decided she wants pretend that she had um

[00:38:39] it's because of her new or no no no no it was it was epilepsy I'm sorry it was epilepsy

[00:38:47] and she read up on it found out all the things that could trigger you bow a blah and literally they

[00:38:53] eventually put her on the medicine now she fucked up as she's having seizures come like

[00:38:57] this shit fucks with your your biologic yeah your body and look she had us out here you know she

[00:39:04] would go in through some still me she got us out here praying for her and shit you know get that

[00:39:10] get that out of her lower cure her lower but really she went I'm like couple but

[00:39:15] that's that being shared with me now

[00:39:23] we see the fact that he was trying to breathe

[00:39:26] I just can't go with that oh my gosh I mean but but that's what these that's what these drugs do

[00:39:33] you know what I would these things are made to to affect your body and allow you to buy

[00:39:41] the compensate for and everything else so when you start just going out your way to do shit like

[00:39:47] that man look yeah that's a that's a wild scenario yeah I was saying as far as um

[00:39:57] more or less like um agreeing with you because it's it's kind of like yo we already we now know

[00:40:03] that um some of the the pharmaceuticals or the drugs if you will

[00:40:10] um it wasn't really thoroughly tested or really didn't do some of them they really didn't do what

[00:40:15] it was supposed to do some of my two damn strong some of them won't molecule away from crack or not

[00:40:20] crack heroin heroin yeah so it's kind of like all right we'll too far from it

[00:40:26] or some of it like the the anti-depressive stuff causes water pressure like soup that's

[00:40:31] not stewardship but just like stuff like that so I'm off of always been a fan of like not a fan

[00:40:36] but I've always thought like all right well situations though the kitchen sink at it but

[00:40:43] the first part of that kid the owner kitchen sink at it should be natural

[00:40:50] natural alternatives and and and and other things

[00:40:56] right like um like I said the the exercising and stuff like that works with me but who's to say

[00:41:03] if I didn't go to um whoever I would need to go to and every like you know where you might be a little

[00:41:08] depressed here some so low and I don't really need so low you know what I mean I'm getting I'm

[00:41:14] fine with it which is by exercising and staying out of my head right and shit like that so

[00:41:19] and then I'll read stories or I'll listen to a podcast here and there and I think I was um

[00:41:27] you know who Neil Brennan is right he was writing for the shipale show no no clue who that is

[00:41:33] oh you don't okay any who backs background just a little bit uh writing for the shipale show

[00:41:40] with day shipale he's one of the writers for day shipale comes up to coming up with stuff for his

[00:41:45] stand-up and ship some of his stuff right but not too long ago I was listening to him speak about

[00:41:54] um his uh think his journey with depression and shit like that and he says that

[00:42:00] exercise and a shit like that helps with him too and he doesn't like taking the drugs

[00:42:05] and he didn't believe in God and all this other stuff he says he did one thing of uh

[00:42:11] ayahuasca and there's something else he was using God and the pressure has gone I'm like what

[00:42:21] I'm like so he probably actually had a chemical thing going on

[00:42:25] so that's just him doing it once and not on medicine and I'm just like how the

[00:42:31] I mean I would know I'm not a biologist or what do you call it when it comes to um

[00:42:37] a chemist or chemist or anything like that it's another term that merges both of those and I

[00:42:43] can't think of the term many so when I when he said that I was like what damn it has to be some

[00:42:48] truth into you know like sometimes it's just finding out the uh because everybody's body is unique

[00:42:55] and sometimes it's just finding out what's not allowing things to happen right so I started diving

[00:43:00] deeper into that stuff and then when I heard that I wasn't really thinking too much about it

[00:43:06] and then I recently started thinking about end diving deep into it too and it's the stuff

[00:43:11] I mean it's the test that you can take called a uh like a a genome methylation test and it just

[00:43:18] basically you can get your blood drawn or go to a mouse swab and it just basically gives you a

[00:43:23] printout or read out once the test is taken of how your body absorbs certain nutrients and minerals

[00:43:30] and what those nutrients and minerals do it's sometimes your body when you're born you're healthy right

[00:43:37] you get all 10 toes all 10 fingers check that um however um sell you on the cellular

[00:43:46] cellular level your body might not be taken as much iron as it should even though

[00:43:53] or it's not I'm sorry it's not processing certain things as it should it's taken everything in

[00:43:58] but it's not processing it so you might pee it out or poop it out or just go somewhere what you know

[00:44:03] I mean it doesn't go it doesn't everything isn't going what it's supposed to go and then

[00:44:07] the doctor is going to be able to test that as you're you know when you're born they don't but they

[00:44:12] can you kind of go to the center so some people are getting those tests they get in their read out

[00:44:18] from their doctor or whatever I have you and then they're eating and living a life according

[00:44:22] to that and some people have been able to reverse certain things like blocky skin yeah

[00:44:28] feeling depressed and stuff like that it's just kind of like why don't everybody know about this ship

[00:44:37] health care system sucks yeah as good as it is it sucks yeah so when I was looking into

[00:44:48] that I'm like what damn like sometimes our cognitive being was filling the certain type of way

[00:44:52] of foggy it is because of the foods that we eat or the nutrients that we're not getting right it's

[00:44:57] literally that it's completely true yeah like it was fun now was um I had stopped drinking for a

[00:45:04] week or so and I was telling my supervisor I was like you know I just like my head feels like

[00:45:11] it's going to explode and he was like well the drink a lot I said me I drank you know like

[00:45:18] well your blood vessels are you know they're narrow so that means they got to expand back out so

[00:45:23] yeah you're going to feel like a little groggy a little lightheaded because it's you know

[00:45:29] it's it your body's recalibrated this I was like oh yeah that makes sense but um yeah man is

[00:45:38] shit especially if you had a hangover is this literally that too

[00:45:43] so it makes complete like it made complete sense like all right what that that makes sense

[00:45:47] so it made me feel better I was like damn I you know in my head I'm thinking I'm like

[00:45:52] about to like have a aneurysm wasn't shit like I'm thinking the worst shit you know

[00:45:59] so but I mean I'm glad that you know I got people around me that had helped me with

[00:46:06] what's going on in my head so that I'm not over here tripping those shit you know saying

[00:46:11] yeah that I mean that's what boys now so you never want to be in your own head about shit

[00:46:15] I'm always my heart is not to be in my head about shit because it's like

[00:46:22] my my wife do it does a pretty good job with ask him yeah how I'm uh

[00:46:27] how I'm doing and shit like that because she knows uh hard on I am on myself no one's being

[00:46:32] hard on me the world maybe you know from time to time right nobody harder than me then you

[00:46:38] know all myself than me now my wife asked me every other day so how's your mental health today

[00:46:43] I'm like yeah she's fine okay I was making sure you know that and like and and and that's

[00:46:49] why I appreciate it because she'll she'll notice the smallest things going on with me

[00:46:55] yeah my she's like oh well I noticed that you know you've been drinking you know

[00:47:01] not your normal you've been drinking a whole lot more like a half a bottle like what's going on

[00:47:06] like you need to tell me every time we talk I'll stop you're here your shit always sounds so extreme

[00:47:13] I have a bottle a half a bottle shit happens man you know you lad look

[00:47:20] see here's the thing man you won't believe what happened I should be laughing oh uh

[00:47:27] you won't believe what happened to me man so I'm gonna story time with you

[00:47:33] so you know how like uh you apply for a job in your unit right

[00:47:39] and yeah you know in essence if you've been

[00:47:46] if you've been like doing the job usually you're supposed to get the job you know I was saying

[00:47:54] man listen don't give me go away I'ma let you tell us what but it happens you know so I'm not saying that

[00:48:04] I'm not gonna say anything outlandish just one of the things I was like all right well

[00:48:09] you applied a job you you killed an interview but didn't they all decided to say yeah we just think

[00:48:16] you're not the right candy for the job I was like well and my father's still coming to work and

[00:48:20] and it's still do my job because you pretty much just told me I can't do my damn job

[00:48:27] like in my head that's what I heard you know I'm saying I heard that's not what they said though

[00:48:33] I mean it's not what they said but in the grand scheme of it that's what I heard was we don't think

[00:48:39] well maybe not that I can't do my job but we don't think you're good enough to do this job

[00:48:43] and it's like but I was good enough to do it until y'all found somebody tell you found somebody

[00:48:48] and you know I know I know when it comes to work for it's just politics and a lot of stuff

[00:48:52] and depending on who likes you who doesn't like you should happen you know what I'm saying but the

[00:48:59] one thing I will always say is if the people who are interviewing me aren't the ones who can hire

[00:49:08] me why did why did interview me true you know say it's like is it just because you want to say

[00:49:18] you you did which was supposed to do bow blow or you know like if the last say comes with somebody

[00:49:24] totally different than a person hire me then why then why then why do you have these people

[00:49:29] why not have that person interviewed true I listen I understand and I empathize with you

[00:49:39] on the level that you just don't know because well you're about to know I'm currently going through

[00:49:44] a situation like that right now but my shit is a lot way worse and it's still playing out

[00:49:52] and I don't want to tell the story today because the beginning is wild

[00:50:01] it would throw the trajectory off of this whole episode so I promise you when it ends

[00:50:09] you will be like you still want to work there

[00:50:13] and listen listen listen I told my wife which is shooting my word for the story I said yo

[00:50:21] four years and I'm vested because I gotta be there 10 years I said I ain't doing no heart shit

[00:50:27] until until like I don't want to be like homegirl that fucking left me ain't you ain't get

[00:50:33] fucking vested you know what I mean I had a year to go and get vested

[00:50:37] nah has no fucking way yeah I was like nah but trust trust the belief I got a story in my back pocket

[00:50:44] in this it would take up the whole it would take up by hour of talking I have a yo I have two

[00:50:50] stories actually because another situation is playing out and I told my homie I was like look

[00:50:54] when it's all said and done with what what happened and I'mma just want to do like this

[00:50:59] potential shootout with the love of the story and I said yo Angle I used no names

[00:51:07] but this is a this is a story that uh

[00:51:15] this is a story that people that adore Kevin Samuels and marry people and single people need there

[00:51:24] and he's like yeah he's like you got my blessing I'm like all right I might even have you on the

[00:51:28] month look I might even have you tell the fucking story I just like god damn man so mental health y'all

[00:51:40] one one less that I have learned also is yo uh make time for yourself put I'm not saying put

[00:51:48] yourself first over others like in a selfish way but put yourself first so you can be

[00:51:53] of service that's one thing that I fucking learn and I have a hard time going like not all some

[00:52:00] selfish shit but just more or less like yo uh be you know put yourself in a situation

[00:52:06] so you could be kind or put yourself in a situation so people want to be around you you know what I

[00:52:10] mean like yeah like if you feel yourself being a certain type of way the correct that shit

[00:52:17] I realize not so I said this shit on the park as before usually I know I'm not uh I'm going down

[00:52:24] the wrong situations when I feel like slapping people at work I've said this shit numerous of

[00:52:29] times I'm like oh it is time for me to take two three days off because I want to slap you

[00:52:36] right that can't happen I mean I'm like I'm like I'm gonna say I want to slap anybody but I think

[00:52:43] what where I can't where where my realization came at and you know and like my wife was telling me

[00:52:49] about she's like now you know uh where you sit and that when it's time yeah with that situation

[00:52:58] exactly and all they tell you is all the good things that you've been doing and how you have

[00:53:04] you have improved this office and everything else and all of a sudden now but it's like

[00:53:10] but you weren't hired for the position so then what do you tell me all the good shit I'm doing for

[00:53:15] like I don't care about all the good shit I'm doing I want this money yeah yeah exactly

[00:53:23] where them dollars that yeah that's what that's what that's what that's what that's what that's what

[00:53:29] that's what I feel you and it's just kind of like yo like

[00:53:37] I hate I just I don't like office politics because it's never I don't like the corporate world

[00:53:44] because it's never it's it's it's like it feels like it's like 1% of what you if you can actually do

[00:53:50] the job and like 99% of if they fuck with you like you are you could already have the job of people

[00:53:57] just wouldn't fuck with you on a certain level because either one you're not kissing they asked

[00:54:02] to you not you know you're not as charismatic as whoever but yet you're getting your job now

[00:54:08] like it's so draining that's another reason why I'd be so wound up because it's so draining being

[00:54:13] fake you know my ass the off the episode office PTSD I gotta go back into the office and be fake

[00:54:18] to these motherfuckers right that is draining oh draining as fuck I did I'm doing my job it just for

[00:54:26] you to be like mmm I don't think that would be like yo you know what I get it I understand it

[00:54:36] and they try maybe go back into the office three days a week yeah I just kind of like they

[00:54:44] like they took me into the office and it was like uh so we just want to talk to you unless

[00:54:48] you know that um well we didn't want you to hear from HR that you weren't chosen but we just

[00:54:54] wanted to let you know that you weren't selected for the position and I don't know if you hear did

[00:55:01] you did HR call you or did you ever make sure no why did they talk before HR but that HR actually

[00:55:10] say something to you as well oh oh yeah

[00:55:16] it's like we just want to hear we just want you to hear from us before you know before you heard

[00:55:21] it from HR because you know we value you know we value you being here and you know you have really

[00:55:29] done a lot of things here and you know I'm like so tell me all this but you but you're not

[00:55:41] promoting me you remember you remember like you watched the land right yeah remember when

[00:55:47] uh uh uh uh paperboy had a homeboy that came out of jail Tracy it was living with them he

[00:55:53] went to go get that fucking job yeah I do rag on at the the fucking ways women and shit

[00:55:59] when they told him he wasn't a good fit and how you fucking flip the fuck off

[00:56:06] that's all I wanted to do the other day oh no that's what that's all I want to do I want to

[00:56:11] for me to shit well that that's where I was and I was like you know when I thought about

[00:56:18] it was like all right I mean in the day I'm not 20 something years old where I can just be like man

[00:56:24] fuck yeah I'm out exactly like I got a family that I got to care of and I'm like all right well let me

[00:56:31] think about this in a way of like all right I still have to be a professional you know what I'm saying

[00:56:39] all this time are you on me want to be a professional and that's why you need to and that's why

[00:56:42] your mental health need to be on point or like the D stress because be personally I don't want it

[00:56:48] to be one of those situations where like you know what this is a real nigga I'm gonna have a real

[00:56:53] nigga moment and then I might want to have a job I don't want that I know that's a possibility with

[00:56:59] anybody if they get pushed to the lemon it's just kind of like yo who thinks in your life where

[00:57:04] you can't you will you not a stress you know I mean yeah I mean shit like my story so bad

[00:57:14] I'm getting triggered here your story and it's like similar and my sister still playing now

[00:57:18] and I'm just like man even the lady was even even the lady was like you know do you

[00:57:26] are you discrepanied about anything like I'm like you're asking me some very very specific

[00:57:31] question right after with it is like you know yeah yeah there's told me that yeah I didn't give

[00:57:36] a shit that I that you should have gave me to position just but do you still want to stay here

[00:57:42] like no I don't want to stay here I'm ready to go but I need to stay here to a fast enough

[00:57:48] no job I know exactly like I know like the words it's like the words I said the she'll shut the

[00:57:59] fuck up you think that's just like you you know how like people get interview right after they

[00:58:05] lost this shit and the fight it's just like something I know you don't want fuck it talking nobody

[00:58:10] right which I yeah ask me questions as if like I'm like come on that good

[00:58:17] and eat and my supervisor called himself hey don't don't get wrong like yeah I appreciate my

[00:58:22] supervisor for what he does do but I'm like dude you don't I get it it's politics behind a

[00:58:31] lot of stuff I get it like I ain't I ain't tripping but in a day you know saying you suppose you

[00:58:39] know you supposed to have my back at that on this particular thing you know saying like

[00:58:47] even though they might you know and that's why I'm like well how how does upper management who

[00:58:55] doesn't have to work with me every day had or the people above you and your boss how do they have a say

[00:59:04] and oh it's the same thing it's yeah let me tell you how bad my shit is someone has a say that's

[00:59:13] a ball to retire in five months I'm like this nigga shouldn't be doing any of the fucking hiring he

[00:59:24] I mean it wasn't even that I'm just like if if he was if I don't have to work with him every day

[00:59:30] well he doesn't have to interact with me every day then why does he have a say on who gets

[00:59:33] hired if it's like it's the team that needs to be building that's and in my head that's it didn't

[00:59:39] they hit me that's why all these government teams are fucked over because when someone

[00:59:46] is this a V who who will be the best fit for it they go back and look at the interviews and

[00:59:52] like no we think this to be the best fit for you so this is who we're going to offer the job to

[00:59:57] so then what's the point of having people what what's the point of having these panel interviews

[01:00:03] of a people coming in doing these interviews if all that's going to happen is you're just going

[01:00:09] to override it based on what you think what you think for versus what someone else has already

[01:00:16] told you like this is the best person for this position you know what I was talking about

[01:00:22] because my situation still ongoing my my situation doesn't even finite yet like it's look I don't

[01:00:28] it's starting off like how you're shit it's weird but I was talking to my wife and I was like

[01:00:34] the one thing I hate about corporate jobs or just in general like would you work for someone

[01:00:39] you whoever's your whoever's in management they only see you for what they can see you

[01:00:47] they don't sometimes like and I think and I haven't been in management but I think

[01:00:53] this can be the signs of not a good manager was just kind of like you can't even think outside

[01:00:58] the box with your employees it's just kind of like he's a that person's b that person's c they

[01:01:04] always going to be c they always going to be a that person's always going to be so it's kind of like

[01:01:10] they manage their they manage their whatever they're managing or their shop quote-unquote the way that

[01:01:18] they the the way that they want to the way that they see you as and then sometimes they

[01:01:23] will never see you as anything else so it's kind of like how do you have a position or a job

[01:01:31] where this should be upward mobility and you don't do anything so to help people move upwards

[01:01:40] right and it's just kind of like what do you think that comes from?

[01:01:44] not you know I'm gonna talk about me personally you're just in general because that's how

[01:01:48] some companies are right or organizations or departments are ran is just kind of like

[01:01:52] you're rather go outside and then have the people inside train the person you want

[01:01:59] outside rather than just doing a little bit of training for a person inside

[01:02:04] moving them up and then hiring someone to take their spot. That's how I thought things

[01:02:09] were supposed to go right but that's that's how everybody got different infrastructure for shit

[01:02:15] I mean that's how things supposed to go because I'm like if

[01:02:20] I get it you maybe you didn't want to hire nobody else or maybe you're like

[01:02:25] ah that means we got a backfill disposition I get it but what's the difference between

[01:02:30] backfill and position or hiring for a new it's still a position position free fill right

[01:02:35] like it's no sense and my head I'm like you could almost alleviate the other position or my position

[01:02:43] because it wasn't it's not too much that the position I was moving to that was trying to move to

[01:02:50] that was different from my position except for that I'll be front facing with somebody local

[01:02:56] government that was it like it wasn't anything more than that and so I'm like

[01:03:04] so you you go out your way to say oh well you know and then you know my supervisor

[01:03:10] and like I said I appreciate what he's done but to be like well you know you can always go

[01:03:16] and talk to him and you know to the you know to him and try to change his opinion I'm like

[01:03:22] well now I'm begging you I said and I'm not going to hire you no

[01:03:28] like at the end of the day if the person who doesn't work with me is making a decision based on

[01:03:36] how he feels about me that means he didn't even notice that my body of work is just that good

[01:03:42] that you would realize if you listen to who's talking to you that it doesn't matter what the

[01:03:49] situation is I get the job done no matter what but because you have an opinion on me like

[01:03:55] and I and I get it I don't look like I'm interested I don't look like this but I'm like dude you

[01:04:02] tell me there's an emergency I've been in this industry for 12 and a half years

[01:04:06] I've seen every emergency I've been through COVID I've been through H1N1 I've been through swine

[01:04:11] I've been through all this shit that's been emergencies and you tell me we might have to show

[01:04:16] to for a hurricane oh all right cool we'll see how bad it is and we'll get we'll get started when

[01:04:25] when there's actually you know time to do it like why am I getting worked up about something that

[01:04:30] might happen you know like okay yeah let's make some phone calls it's called a scale of staff

[01:04:37] whatever whatever but like you you you you bothered that I been in this industry like if I was

[01:04:44] new to this industry of course I'll be like oh my gosh what's going on oh we might have an

[01:04:47] emergency I'm telling my wife oh my gosh we might be sheltered I've been in this industry for so

[01:04:52] God damn law oh so there might be something coming up the coast oh all right cool all right well

[01:05:00] cool which you need me to do oh get my shit together and and make sure everything's together

[01:05:04] all right cool whatever home done let's keep it rolling like

[01:05:08] it that's the that's the thing between a vet and then someone who don't know what they don't

[01:05:16] but you want me to be like on pens and needles about shit no I'm not doing that

[01:05:22] I've been in this industry too long to be on pens and needles about shit you know what I'm saying

[01:05:26] oh my gosh oh run around my hair on fire like I've been in this industry too long I know

[01:05:32] does industry built on my this this industry is built on harry up and wheat that's all it is

[01:05:39] harry up and wheat you get everything done and you just wait and then all they tell you all right

[01:05:43] everything's good just put all the shit back but I wouldn't put the shit back I'd leave the

[01:05:49] shit stage I couldn't just do it because I'm not about to sit here and hear if I'm wheat every time

[01:05:55] someone says be do this the fuck you need right all right

[01:06:02] bro I feel for you because I am going through something similar

[01:06:09] not exactly the same thing because there's I put it so you like this this is what I can't say

[01:06:18] because it's still ongoing

[01:06:28] it's time I only think I can say that because it's so juicy and you're gonna be like yo

[01:06:32] you gotta tell me this fucking story you already know you're gonna have to tell me the fucking story

[01:06:36] so I'm gonna say this I'm gonna say this I'm gonna just oh no I'm not I'm not because the

[01:06:41] wing got the time I'm hungry I'm gonna just say this

[01:06:47] I hit a place of shit clinging in the back and I hear him and you're and you're back

[01:06:51] and I'm upstairs and I'm like yo come on y'all look I'm here over here but how many

[01:06:56] tell me about support this shit good I'm like I'm just eating a hungry shit

[01:07:03] I'm eating him

[01:07:07] all right so the rap is up long story short

[01:07:12] can't get one position but I could get some biopsis position and acted it and I'm like what

[01:07:20] I'm like nah see look you look what no I'm not I don't want it

[01:07:31] I don't want it that's the problem I don't want it wow but it's it's when I say it's crazy is crazy

[01:07:41] but I'm when I know everybody take care of them it's well I had to take care of mine back to work

[01:07:51] on Monday to deal with people hey man you're lucky you get days off from dealing with niggas

[01:07:59] I got going if my days a week excuse me no no no no no no you gotta realize my profession

[01:08:05] they're calling me because stuff is broke I don't get days off from dealing with people with

[01:08:09] people every day look I don't see I don't physically see them sometimes hey look I physically see

[01:08:16] I physically have to deal with the bullshit I'm like you know fuck you I'm like

[01:08:21] when we ties up I've been tempted to just get in my car and leave and in my book like hey you come

[01:08:26] back up oh it's five o'clock I'm already left yeah yeah think about shoes are we talking about

[01:08:35] yeah no they are high for two and then shit maybe we talk about it next week or something like

[01:08:47] down though still playing out but thing over work it's really then you know you look so