Inspire To Aspire

[00:00:00] Long as I could look at myself in the mirror and be like, yo, you didn't hold yourself out to get these things. I was cool with doing it. Or I ain't, you know, I ain't heard nobody's feelings or backstab and shit like that.

[00:00:10] Like, yo, that's what I was going. That's what I'm doing. That makes sense. I mean, I mean, as long as you didn't have to hold yourself out for it. You know what I mean by hold myself out. I don't mean like...

[00:00:23] Oh, no, I know what you mean because I mean, there were a couple of chicks who I knew that were like, oh, well, you know, the only reason I did certain things was because

[00:00:31] I ain't want no one, you know, I want to one thing and I was a hoe or I want to be hold out. Like, oh, you hanging out with us and blah, blah, blah. So you ain't got no weed. You ain't got no liquor. So what you doing?

[00:00:43] You fucking or not? Like, you know what I'm saying? What are you talking about? That's not what I meant. I mean, welcome to a new year of The According To Wes podcast. Yeah. Yeah. As always, got D Lawyer. Yep, D Law with the new and improved water heater.

[00:01:03] And you got me Wes and we doing something a little on unorthodox and we are starting our first episode of the year towards the end of the first month of the year. And yeah, man. Is the cat still alive? Well, I have good news. I had bad news.

[00:01:28] Good news. The cat is still alive. The bad news is a motherfucker. That was wrangling news. We got him a little water fountain. So we this is what was even more hilarious. So I remember when the hot water heater went out, it was at the same time

[00:01:49] that we had got got him the water fountain. So he's pounding us in the bathroom to turn on the faucet. Yeah. So I'm like, oh my God, like this is crazy. How we get this and this shit go out and then it's a little negative.

[00:02:04] So when it when it got real cold, I mean, when I say it was cold, it was cold in here. I've never seen the cat not get up when we get up to like run to the bathroom or run downstairs.

[00:02:14] Like he got up in the bed close to us one night. The night before we decided we want to get a hotel the very next night. My wife put the blanket over him and he snucked up in that motherfucker.

[00:02:23] And I got it looked like, yeah, I'm thinking about running over there. But now I think I'm good. Yeah. And I told my wife, she's like, we got first. That don't mean nothing. Like cats, cats bodies are just as sensitive as ours when it comes to heat.

[00:02:40] So I think there's a little bit to not as ours a little bit more sensitive. Like they can't do like, like if he was doing water, they can't really do cold water and they can't really do hot water.

[00:02:56] It has to be a certain type of because it's yeah, because it's crazy to them. So it being cold. Yeah, he was cold. Oh yeah. Like he can I mean, he definitely cannot. We call it sustaining hot cold weather but not for a long time. He's a.

[00:03:13] So he, you know, he got to he got the cats outside that are built for him. He ain't built for no out. Well, I don't think he want to be. He lived the privilege. You live the privileged life in the house.

[00:03:28] Yeah, cause all you do is nap this week. Yeah. And you got a hunt for his food to shit it in his bowl whenever he wanted to be. I was cash shit. We asked the cat is no lie. He didn't kill him yet. That's what's up.

[00:03:45] But he be he be he be he be a sense of some nerves in here. Oh, I know. I know I know for a fact. I know for a fact. Yeah, man. It yeah, a little on orthodox. That was a nice little break we took shit.

[00:04:09] I could tell you so you one thing I definitely needed a break from my all this everything. It was like one less task that I had that you had to do on my list. Yeah, you could be like, oh yeah, Sundays I can relax and shit.

[00:04:26] No, there was no relaxing. It was more less like I ain't seen my wife going or sleeping. Well, I guess you could say it called a relaxing trying to play 2k and shit like that. But you know, you know, that's your girl.

[00:04:39] I made my center and I didn't make them like yours. Okay, I had the 92 outlet passing or passing. I got the past him. Okay, right. I can so you know, I hate making centers that can shoot the three.

[00:04:55] But I made a certain that could hit a three if needed. It not consistently hit it. Yeah, but wide open perfect storm ball hits my hands. No lag. Cockback shoot it. I'll make I went to for two my last game. Gotcha. You know, we won by three.

[00:05:18] So I felt like my two threes hope to get to that. Shit else was up. But yeah. I bored. I mean, I'm only averaging about 12 boards, but I should be averaging more. I'm just I'm just not you know, I'm not a I'm not a I'm not a video

[00:05:38] game center. Like I mean like I and I hate the randoms I keep playing with. They get a wide open look and they dribble and I'm like, what are you dribbling for? Like you got a wide open look. I'm already in position.

[00:05:53] Brutcher and they won't shoot and then dribble and wait to the guy gets in front of him and shoot it. So I'm like, yo, if you are badge hunting to get dead eye then bad for in my career. Yeah, that's what you do.

[00:06:07] Bad turn in my career and shoot your dead eye shots. Why are you doing that? And again, we were trying to win. Yeah, like because there was many times like these teams we kept playing like we kept playing these things that were running zone and I'm like.

[00:06:24] I keep getting position to get the rebound and you're not shooting it and then I got to come out the paint to go back in the paint now I'm not in position. So when I come out the paint all of a sudden I decided to shoot it.

[00:06:35] I'm like, and now I can't get your rebound off your fucking miss right. Yeah, I can't get your rebound because you decide to shoot it after I was out of position and I get it. You can't you can't shoot based on the position of your

[00:06:48] center, but I might ask them to shoot based on my position. I'm just asking them to shoot when they open. Yeah, like period. Like if you can't if you can't shoot I get it. If you're a guard and you're small and you can't shoot

[00:07:03] you have to be on a perimeter to go inside out. I mean outside in I get it, but then make that known that oh I can't shoot. So if I get the ball out here I'm driving so I know to step out.

[00:07:17] I'm assuming if you want to perimeter you can shoot. You know true if you're standing around for a month I'm assuming you can shoot period like I'm not assuming anything else other than if you made a build you made

[00:07:29] a build that can hit a three even if you're like my small four was an 82 three point. I can hit threes. I've gone five on five from three point range so even if it's that low yet you can hit like come on. Like it's your life.

[00:07:48] Yeah, yeah, yeah. I my shit is that what like a what a 93 I think yeah 93 I'm at 93. Yeah, so thank good. I just started my center last week. Okay, so everything been good with my build. I love my build. I haven't played it online yet.

[00:08:10] Only because I don't want to play on randoms. Yeah, yeah, but I might have to play with randoms just to kind of see how that shit feel. So huh going at you. That's what I did. Yeah, I'm gonna do that.

[00:08:27] What you kind of up against is what I noticed because you're you're powerful right. Yeah. I'm a I'm a center center. So I you know, I'm a powerful word. I'll make my build a little different but I can't garden it up nobody out there really I am.

[00:08:44] I am a true center true center a true on the on the deepest end. I am a true center. I'm not a let me I'm not fast. Not like my last center build where I could go from the three point line to the to the paint and still

[00:09:00] meet you at the rim. No, I got to anticipate that and then it gets rough because I'm just like you know what I'm tired of anticipating it. If my guys gonna stand out here on the three point line guess where I'm going to be at.

[00:09:12] Yeah, the order three point line so you guys better you know and since everybody's making center center builds that can that can shoot. They know there's really no place for me is really no place for me out there to really get boards like that. Right.

[00:09:31] So it's a rough go like I get my 10 boards but when I say those are tough 10 boards. Those are tough 10 boards and Hall of Fame. Run Hall of Fame rebound chaser. That's what Hall of Fame box. I'll be that is what Hall of Fame Pogo stick. God damn.

[00:09:55] Yeah. The most rebounds I got in the game was like 14 and that was a that was a hard 14. Yeah, I need to get out there. I mean well I need to I need to play at least a couple of rounds with some randoms. At least a couple.

[00:10:18] So New Year man. I know you want your New Year New Year shit to a degree. I'm going to want a New Year New Me shit but you want some New Year New shit. Man I want some New Year same shit just better than last year.

[00:10:32] That's a listen that's how I live my life every day every hour every fucking month every year. The goals are the same. I'm just trying to figure out what would work last year and then continue that and what didn't work I get that shit out of here. Right.

[00:10:49] Always the same for me is merit you know life was a marathon and not a sprint. Oh yeah. I don't do that cliche New Year New Me shit is more less like all right. Just keep it moving. I'm alive. I do that.

[00:11:04] I do exactly what you will Santa say his song. He said he said today's a new year. I'm doing everything I've been doing better than I usually does completely horrible grammar but still I get it the way you mean like referencing some

[00:11:22] shit and I probably heard the song but don't remember the song. Where you just pull the day yourself. Amen. I'm pretty sure that shit was off a probably diplomatic immunity one of them with the games been missing. Existing with the game. Yeah I'm dating myself a little bit.

[00:11:47] I was already saying it and update myself to by knowing that it was probably awful with the games been missing. Shout out to you. I still think that was his best album. One of the only out or yeah to after that he had three out

[00:12:03] he's had he's had at least three because he did a remember his very first album with the game has been missing and then he did. What's the one he had soft on it. Your song called soft with Rick Ross and a fabulous Missy.

[00:12:25] Well Santana because I got the I mean I got the I got them is actually I think it was a mixed thing I think it was really mixed tape but he did from me to you and what the game is missing is his official album albums.

[00:12:42] As far as mixed tapes God willing that's what it was called that's the last thing I got from was God willing. The only willing I recognizes Lord willing. Hey I'm just saying. Shout out to the Clips.

[00:13:06] That is the best album that is the best one of the best album cover artwork ever you writing a fucking drop top caddy and Jesus in the back. One of the fucking best. I see that my fact I got that I should see you later but

[00:13:30] yeah I'm thinking about getting that on the on the wall but Marvel did like a Marvel hip hop variance so some of the hip hop album covers they did you know they you know some of the covers are superheroes on it so like

[00:13:49] for for that Lord willing join us it's like two Spider-Man and another Spider-Man in the back. Or for the Spider-Man. Something like that but yeah and then with the black album is I think it has a black man on it like stuff

[00:14:10] like that for Jay-Z so yeah but what a while a attention deficit is first joint is a dead pool and it's that of while they want to front it says wait that's actually my screensaver my out not my screensaver with my background picture on this

[00:14:29] computer for reasons you already know while they from DC wait you know. I get it I get it I get it. But yeah so question for you right. All right beginning the new year you keeping up with the same stuff that you did or you know last

[00:14:50] year or you know still trying to achieve those goals or prove upon a stuff prove upon yourself what has inspired you to pursue personal development what is inspiring you what is it inspired you if it's still the same thing is still the same

[00:15:06] thing but in the past and right now as any of that stuff change. Man you asking serious questions to start off. Yo one why not man I said I had to you know we talked earlier said y'all got to think about

[00:15:18] some stuff a thought about something for every week it is yeah man so I'm good to go. All right. For more now you do one say just that's still the same so this should be up on the top of your head. Oh man.

[00:15:35] Your wife must be listening so say some smart. What would a smart answer be can you repeat the question. That's the smartest answer I got right now as far as matter of. All I'm saying is what inspires you that's I mean pursue personal development like what inspires you.

[00:16:01] You know just being successful really just. I mean and trying not to have my wife yelling at me about dumb shit. So your wife inspires you to pursue personal development in yourself. I'm not going to say that she does I will say

[00:16:17] that I you know at some point you just like all right you yelling at me about this because I don't show some sort of ambition so now I'm just trying to you know be better so that you get off my back. That is not a good reason.

[00:16:39] I think I was going to say something like that your personal listen your pursuit. It should not be because of someone it should not be because they get someone else off your back then it'll never happen. I mean I know you only be doing just enough

[00:16:54] so they can stay off your back you're never actually. I know that at the end of the day what it boils down to is going to be that even as I do better she's going to want more. I mean it's just what it is but you know

[00:17:08] a lot of it is just so I can be a lot more stable than what I was before I met her and then if she you know just you know I don't I guess I don't be tripping I

[00:17:19] just be I just be here I just be out here but really just you know just trying to be better and make more money and that way I can do what I want to do. I ain't got to worry about nothing.

[00:17:31] So your your your inspiration is so you can do what you got to do what you want to do. Yeah do what I want to do spend how I want to spend I had to worry about all the restrictions I have of being an adult

[00:17:42] and doing adult shit with my money. You know just and then also you know just look what he called to move up in your career and stuff like that. You know I want to move up my career move up in the government you know shit like

[00:18:00] regular like really just regular shit like nothing dramatic because you know though nothing really bothered me or fazed me too much so I'm just like yeah. Yeah you know that's just me I mean I don't ain't too much that motivates

[00:18:17] me I get up and do it because I have to and that's what I was told to do really. Oh my gosh. I asked you to lie either. If that's if that's what it is that's what it is you know. I mean I mean

[00:18:35] that's I mean I really really what it is like listen I'm not gonna lie like traditionally like that stuff that that was my inspiration like yo like the surface the surface stuff like yo I'ma get this car how I'ma get this house well I gotta

[00:18:49] be married so I gotta do this I want kids on my family or I gotta do this in my career like all that shit has been my inspiration to try to like better myself because I wanted certain things out of those things

[00:19:01] that I just said like well I wanted a certain type of car so I know I needed to make some money so how do I improve myself to make more money oh I want this type of house money oh I want to be you know married

[00:19:13] and this this and that well first you gotta get a girl so yeah you want to need some money but yeah you want to improve upon your social skills yeah you want to smell good man you're going to need to look

[00:19:25] good hey you want to fuck good too because you want to be married like all those things. I know but do we want to be married I'm not saying that or do we want to have a baddie D-Law is saying that on there I'm not saying that.

[00:19:41] I'm just saying do we really just want to have a baddie that we can hit no I'm not saying for me because at my age right now definitely want to be married at my age at this point oh yeah I'd rather be married like even back then

[00:19:55] I ain't gonna say marriage but at least you know somebody was down you know what I mean like I'm in a world shit is stupid man get annoying and it's time consuming like I've been looking at the rat race out here and you got

[00:20:13] some chicks who were like looking good and then got some who ain't you're just like damn yeah. I just want peace of mind I ain't gonna say I just want peace of mind is very high on that list higher than what it should be in most cases

[00:20:33] I would take peace of mind over looks really? hell yeah put it this way you could have a 10 but you're not gonna have peace of mind let's just say out of 10 qualities looks will be damn what's the hierarchy from 1 to 10 1 being the most important

[00:20:55] peace of mind could be number 1 for me looks can be number 3 or 4 that's how I feel right now now if I was early 20s I mean come on now looks was number looks was number looks was number 1 looks was number 1 like I'm not gonna lie

[00:21:21] I'm not gonna lie but I dealt with a lot of looks was number 1 type of shit and I'm just like god I ain't I don't never wanna go back to that dumb ass shit so yeah you could have a baddie but it's just like

[00:21:31] if that motherfucker is stressing you to fuck out over stupid in the brain I don't want to say the hard word but you know what I mean like no common sense or just like gotta hold her hand do everything nobody wanna go through that shit

[00:21:45] no no man would really want to go through that shit for over a or the airhead yeah that stuff definitely used to inspire me like to get all those things and stuff like that but you know I was I wanted all this shit whatever I had to do

[00:22:08] to get that stuff to get those things I would as long as I could look at myself in the mirror and be like yo you didn't hold yourself out to get these things I was cool with them or I ain't you know I ain't heard nobody

[00:22:22] feelings or backstab and shit like that like yo that's what I was doing that's what I was doing that makes sense I mean as long as you had to hold yourself out for it you know what I mean by hold myself out I don't mean like

[00:22:38] I mean there was a couple of chicks who I knew that were like oh well you know the only reason I did certain things was because I ain't want no one you know I want to one thing and I was a hoe

[00:22:48] or I want to be holed out like oh you hanging out with us and blah blah so you ain't got no weed you ain't got no liquor so what you doing you fucking or nah like you know what I'm saying what are you talking about

[00:23:00] when I that's not that's not what I meant I mean like how could I put it I know what I mean I mean more or less like you're in a situation and it's going against your morals which you do it anyway for money just to get

[00:23:18] this particular let's just say you get this particular car or to get this whatever or to deal with this type of girl you're doing something that's against your morals as a man that's what I mean by hold out because if you because if you're doing

[00:23:30] if you haven't if you don't want to have sex with this fucking money and you have sex with this money you've been hold yeah I mean that's what I'm getting at like you didn't want to do it but you did it like as long as back then

[00:23:42] what my inspiration was as long as I could get those things well you know nice car whatever have you all those things without fucking doing crazy shit or whatever I have you or like that was my inspiration that was my inspiration to better myself so those

[00:24:00] things the surface level shit the shit that any adult man would be like yo my inspiration is to have this this instance and this it was always to have something so my personal development came from me gaining more stuff not that it

[00:24:16] sounds bad when I think about it but that's what drove me I'm not yo like because I mean I'm gonna drive you you can't do I mean you can't just be uninspired your you know and that's what I try to sell some you know some

[00:24:30] you can't just be uninspired about life like oh like cause we ain't gonna be here to be taking care of you like yeah if your aspirations is to just kind of live in a trap house and smoke weed and do whatever you do then you found the wrong

[00:24:48] place buddy the crazy thing is speaking like that like I definitely had friends coming up and they still my friends some of them still my friends where we would see the same thing like that would be the aspirations like that part but my aspirations

[00:25:04] would be like what it that nigga got fucking a C 65 bands how the fuck do I get that because that motherfucker look cool and he always stepping out with a big budget so a couple of our friends would see the other thing like yeah

[00:25:18] just be doing this this this and this I ain't gotta go to work and do a nine to five this and this and I'd be like yo hi get to the pictures I get to the I get to this this and this and I knew

[00:25:28] what you know the local drug was not the way that I was gonna go because I know how that ends I've seen enough of it in my family and shit so I'm like I know how that ends

[00:25:38] y'all can have that shit but how do I get to this shit the other way because I've also seen examples of people getting to it that way and I'm like I need that I need that way so unfortunately drug dealers because I you know

[00:25:54] I'm gonna say that lifestyle but the other part of that lifestyle has always inspired me rappers have always inspired me basketball players they've always inspired me and also very they have also inspired me and people that was into like in the tech sector

[00:26:14] has always inspired me hence why I'm in the profession that I'm in now because I knew that those were avenues that I saw where people was making a lot of fucking money and I'm like well and what it's gonna make a lot of money is some skills

[00:26:28] that I don't have so I need to start this whole you know I need to get better so yeah everybody got has no motivation or things that motivate them to be a certain way so I mean I get that yeah yeah

[00:26:48] all the enough none of that shit motivates me anymore as you should you grow up eventually I mean yeah I grow up I still want the nice car and you know I'm married now but you know kids and family and a good career but lately it's just been

[00:27:04] um I don't know like working working this second job and bringing in more money and shit I realize that I don't got a lot of time to myself and stuff like that so and I'm also getting a glimpse of uh you know a decent well-off lifestyle

[00:27:30] or it's making me want to the motivation is starting to become um like family and to be comfortable it ain't even to like to have all those things because it's kind of like it's kind of like I'm starting to realize when people say oh

[00:27:47] once you get money you'll realize how it ain't really shit and I'm like never I never do that and then I'm like oh shit I think this is what it is because you get stuck in that rat race of

[00:27:59] well now I gotta do this and now I gotta do this and now I gotta do this and then it's really buying stuff is more or less like well now that you're at this level this is how you're supposed to operate at this level

[00:28:09] because of this this and this now you have to put more into your IRA because you can fiscally do it and since you're going to be and since this is your lifestyle you want to maintain this lifestyle when you retire and it's just kind of like

[00:28:23] well fuck this ain't like more fucking work I know it's always going to be more work would you I honestly thought it wasn't going to be more work I'm just like alright you're going to reach this and then you're going to be doing this

[00:28:35] this and this and then you'll be fine then you start looking at shit like what should I kind of want that or I the way I was going about things is a little bit trash you know what I mean like I don't know like that stuff

[00:28:51] do not inspire me no more it's more or less like since I know I got we all got one life to live it's like how you make that shit comfortable so on your death bed you'd be like I did all that shit I never you know

[00:29:03] I wouldn't give up the experiences rather than just being on your death bed like damn I wish I could have did this so I shouldn't have worked so much or yeah yeah when it comes down to yeah I definitely don't want that

[00:29:17] I get I mean I get that I mean I know there's a lot of people who probably have their regrets of like man I wish I would have did this differently or I did this differently I get it but for me

[00:29:31] I'm just like yeah you know as much as I could do things differently I still wouldn't do them differently because other position that I ended up in anyway so I'm all I'm in a position now like even though maybe I work a lot maybe me and my wife

[00:29:49] don't have the best relationship and maybe it could be better but I don't regret you know grinding a lot of this stuff out to try to make a better life for us because in a day if I wasn't doing that if that's the only thing she's complaining about

[00:30:05] is you don't have time and you're always working and I'm still paying the bills and everything else I can live with that I mean I'm not too worried about that so I think about that I think about that aspect too because

[00:30:25] man my wife was talking about that shit too and I'd be telling her like you know I told her the reason why I took on the second job in case she didn't remember and shit like that and I was like I really

[00:30:37] don't want to be doing this shit I was like it's not like I feel like I need to get all the money in the world it's just that this was an opportunity for us to for me to like um not get ourselves ahead

[00:30:53] but more or less like actually put down a good base for me to feel like I put down a good base and you know for us and future family and just you know for us basically and I was like um because I thought

[00:31:07] I'm quitting this motherfucker in a couple months I'm not like I can't stay with this shit because the it changed it wasn't necessarily like I'm doing it for money it was just like yo I get to add another retirement investment product into my portfolio I get to

[00:31:29] put some I get to be that rich uncle and put some money away from my nephew's college fun and then my future kids college fun so it's just kind of like once I started researching and doing all this stuff and figuring that out and putting money towards things

[00:31:41] and this this and that I'm like I think I'm done here I thought I would need a lot of money to do this but I really don't and all I'm doing is missing out on time the time that you did this shit right I love them

[00:31:55] I get that I get I get that now don't get me wrong if I had to if I like a hundred percent had to do it then as a man you do what you got to do well I don't necessarily a hundred percent have to do this

[00:32:09] but this has given me a glimpse of what I a hundred percent have to do which is earn money and I know that sounds counter sounds weird counterproductive to what I'm saying I'm saying I shouldn't be working two jobs with more money

[00:32:23] I just need to get a different job with some more money you know so that's the conclusion I came up with it's like yo you on this earth for a short amount of time spend it with the people you love and enjoy and

[00:32:37] do the things you enjoy and love to do so it's kind of like the house shit it was and now I'm thinking about that inspiration like for personal what I say the inspiration for personal development and stuff like that a lot of that

[00:32:53] shit was just to get girls now I'm thinking about it I think all that shit slowed down for me was when I got married oh you got your woman, you got your wife she don't really be caring about shit she just want to be treated special

[00:33:05] and give her time and this the nine it's like oh a lot of I don't know I got a lot of that shit comes with growing up getting older so yeah man the inspiration has changed the inspiration has changed now it is uh how do I kick back

[00:33:27] how do I get to a point where I can kick back and just kind of let not let things happen but you know you do your thing you enjoy your life and keep it moving right nah I get it I get it I get it but

[00:33:49] I guess we're all still figuring that part out what enjoy life part yeah enjoy life part I think we all think it still comes when you get retired nah I'm saying that's another thing and you bought that to my attention too not to my attention but

[00:34:05] I often think about when you said that you had a co-worker that uh as soon as she uh stopped she retired she passed away and shit that's the way that same night yeah and I was just like and there wasn't even like

[00:34:17] over something like oh I'm not working on what was like not a freak accident but it was like an accident right um no one knows I thought you said it was like a car accident or something like that oh shit that scares me even more so what I'm

[00:34:35] let me get back to my point I thought you said it was like an elevator so a car accident I don't know why I thought it was that oh no the last place I saw her was was on the elevator when she was doing her exit meeting

[00:34:51] and that night that night she was having um a little party at her place and um she said they said that when she they said she had a couple beers and she had gone up in her room like around 10 or 11 and she never came

[00:35:09] back down and they found her did like around 2-3 o'clock in the morning see that's okay so it was like shit like that so like we all think like you said it's supposed to come after retirement or shit like that no you're supposed to be making out time

[00:35:25] throughout your life to enjoy that motherfucker and that's something that I know I don't do a lot of so it's kind of like sometimes like that old saying of stopping the smell of roses not that I stop and smell roses on random streets but that means

[00:35:41] you know stopping to enjoy fucking life so it was just kind of like I know I don't do that often I know this fucking second job is taking away from me even trying to do that so this motherfucker has to go when I say

[00:35:53] I have to go and I I definitely been preaching like yo I'm getting ready to drink in a couple months I'm getting ready to drink in a couple months things about to get I'm already it's getting I'm getting rid of this motherfucker in a couple months

[00:36:05] I know y'all got chocola I got my cola and yeah so I should be fine yeah we got a we got a cola but it ain't enough I need more oh I need more too but listen that's what that personal

[00:36:23] development come in at this point you need to I need to be working on myself to make sure that I am marketable for other means of employment and if I was going to take a part-time job or another one I ain't taking one like this no more

[00:36:37] right it's gonna be one that I could probably it ain't gonna be like this because this motherfucker this listen we'll talk after I quit that motherfucker about it they made me sign an NDA so you sign an NDA wow

[00:36:57] and as long as I'm keeping it as long as I'm working this motherfucker I ain't gonna say shit you sign an NDA that's tough so yeah man I don't know what I say that to say but yeah man personal fucking development you gotta go to the world

[00:37:17] yeah smell the roses when you can last time I talked to you speaking of personal development you was Sharon Lee is that still in effect so I did my interviews and you know the stays slow what do you call it hiring hiring and I'm in the state

[00:37:41] so I'm like why is it taking them 40 days or 40 nights shadow the future no that's not enough no no no that's God no yeah that's not God yeah it's not God shadow the God it's future DJS go I said that wow I cannot believe I said that

[00:38:03] shout out to Jesus 40 days for you that's the story of Noah listen listen to some of the city boys out here not me future is the king so shout out the future shit hell boy I can't but yeah so you did your interviews

[00:38:27] and shit like that state taking too long to get back to you taking too long to get back to me and like and one you know because one of them is in my unit so it's like yeah taking this long if y'all know y'all want to hire me

[00:38:41] hire me you know what I'm saying if y'all know y'all want to hire me hire me if y'all ain't gonna hire me don't hire me but have me in limbo like this like come on man I ain't trying to be sitting here in limbo like hoping that

[00:38:59] oh they're gonna call me and you know the wife ask me oh you know what did they call you back I ain't heard nothing you still applying I said yeah I'm still applying I said you know in my head I'm like

[00:39:13] I hope they don't expect me to still be just sitting around waiting because eventually something will come through yeah I was definitely a well yeah I just kinda am like alright you know it is what it is like I can't rush their process so I only can just

[00:39:33] wait until I can continue to do do what's best for you for the time that's do what's best for you at the time I guess there's no other words after that yeah do what's best for you at the time like you make the right moves when the

[00:39:51] when the time is right like if they don't if you need to pivot and they not getting back to you and you pivot because at the end of the day that's what you needed to do so I wouldn't even worry about that I mean you know

[00:40:03] it goes back to like stay ready so you ain't gotta be ready stay ready so you ain't gotta get ready I mean that's what it boils down to and that's the shit I've been on lately especially in my profession just staying ready but that's all you can do

[00:40:21] right cause the way everything be moving fast space well my profession there's no I've seen well I've seen part-time jobs for my profession and something that if I got like a couple certs in and some shit like that where on the weekends I could be making 60k

[00:40:47] a year I mean right now I'm making on the weekends like 40 not a weekend not 40k a weekend but you know when the year is over with I mean I know not on the weekends I'm just like you talk to some women

[00:41:07] they think that's how men make money they just think like oh I need him to make at least 500k a month I'm like what the fuck do you think he do he don't do only fans like you do come on now I'm like a couple memes where

[00:41:25] like they so how much does a man have to make the date you 500k or 100k or 200k I'm like what do you think they do I'm like that's neat I'm like it's a good thing I'm not in the dating game no more cause I ain't got no

[00:41:45] I felt like if I was in the dating game right now I would just be straight disrespected so one man that approached me like that man I think it would be a sport at that point where it's just like I need to find

[00:41:57] maybe go to church or something like I'm not knowing this shit yeah I think a lot of times they're just throwing a number out there it's not real I'm like there's no way that if you don't want to be a sugar baby then that's not even the issue

[00:42:15] wanna know what I think the grander the line issue is I'm not talking to the women that are educated probably went to college maybe you didn't even go to college but you just have some sense of the real world I think the women

[00:42:31] that say stuff like that have no sense of the real world what profession do you think a mother fucker is making 100 300, 200, 400 500k a month that's not a basketball player doctors don't even do that they want to unxpun or that's fine but those are very far in between

[00:42:55] everybody in the united states ain't new and it's kind of like I don't get that logic nah me neither I mean I get one of these it's entertaining to see but you know I guess in all the means that I've seen

[00:43:13] the women who are saying this and it's like the guy was like what are you bringing it's like oh I'm bringing this cat nah okay I was like oh this cat and this cat and you like come on man yeah I mean I get it I mean

[00:43:29] everyone has to believe and know their value so if you believe your value is that high and then someone else doesn't you can't be offended by them not believing your values that high but I've never me and you don't set our value right we do set our value

[00:43:53] no we don't we set our value now whether or not someone decides that they're going to agree with that value that's totally different I'm talking about like it okay I see what you're saying I was talking about a romantic standpoint oh yeah I mean

[00:44:09] even working we kind of like career wise we kind of don't set our value either because it's kind of like depending on um depending on what the maybe for entrepreneur but like you know how that should go like you might say is this but you know

[00:44:27] if you never no one can truly set their own value and say this is my value they could set it but it's not something that everybody's going to go about it's kind of like a car I can have a carol out there I can't say is

[00:44:41] the value of this you so you're the corolla is 50k when it's a 99 and you know what I mean like I can't say that you can I mean I can say that but it's not you know someone else has to tell me about

[00:44:55] I don't think someone else has to tell you the value I think when the market has to tell you the value like yeah like the market rate for shit like that's how that shit goes that's how that shit goes in the dating world like

[00:45:13] you might say oh I'm a 10 or you might say oh no I deserve this but America come to you be like this is why you don't and actually this type of woman deserves this what could you say to that I don't know that's it would you say that

[00:45:33] she said men do it all the time how do we do it all the time I mean I'm not even gonna start on my whole exotic conversation and how a lot of black men go for the exotic women and they feel like they're the ones

[00:45:49] who deserve that kind of salary and they deserve all the best and those are the main ones out here you know trying to divorce y'all in and take half of what y'all got you are very very true and telling the truth

[00:46:03] my whole thing with the exotic thing and I talked to my home boy about it and I talked to you about the studio y'all there's nothing exotic is cold for like light skin right yeah some parents go for it hits by ratio that too that light skin

[00:46:21] that too I always told my homie I'm like yo how dare you like there ain't exotic looking African woman out here ain't exotic looking American woman out here I'm like nah just say you like red bones don't say why I like them exotic

[00:46:35] because there's exotic brown skin dark skin looking woman actually some of the baddest joints I've seen have been from Africa I'm talking about nice cheekbones complexion is nice chocolate and I'm just like can I look better than the red bone that's just me that's just me

[00:46:55] but she right men stupid though they'll do that nah she right she wasn't right throw money at them motherfucker but be dumb as a doorknob and it's just kind of like yo my mind like what are you doing she's gonna clean you out she's with one reason

[00:47:15] and one reason only right and he's the last to know what the reason is that's the crazy part absolutely right well nah she was right I mean you know we go through those things you know those talks quite frequently not frequently but

[00:47:33] you know when we see certain stuff it's like oh there it is an example I mean it might be what he likes but you know you can't put every guy in that same bubble the crazy thing is as far as like that right you can't

[00:47:47] as far as like that market thing if guys just start treating women like that then the market would be fair and reasonable yeah you only get this money if you have these you know there's lists of things I don't know

[00:48:03] everybody's list is gonna be different but you get what I mean yeah so the game fucked up I ain't in the game anymore but from afar I can see that the game is fucked up no it ain't fucked up

[00:48:15] I mean I'm not in the game anymore thank god I don't know thank god they have to get the nose on my all over again they ain't even that it's just like think about like my the attitude yeah I could get to that that's not gonna be the

[00:48:37] if I was ever out there the hardest part for me is gonna be the damn I gotta put up with somebody else I gotta like sugarcoast shit or I gotta act like I'm not too mean but really I just wanna be stern and be like

[00:48:53] no I gotta be like not right now like that type of shit I gotta go through all that shit again yeah like I it trust me else sometimes just I'm just like alright well like dudes below oh yeah you know I got my wife

[00:49:09] I got this I got and I'm like you got all these women isn't your wife enough uh the time the time the time I'm like yo come on man I remember talking to he was my manager at the time he was like yo one day he's like

[00:49:31] he used to think a lot having you know a whole team was good he's like well one day I just wanted to be in the house to play 2k and I felt like I couldn't because I had set up so many moves that night

[00:49:41] that I ain't even get a chance to play a free game he said that's when I knew I had to stop him and his wife and got married to her I said they're like because you wanted to play 2k 2k made you realize you know what I need

[00:49:53] to slow the fuck he's like damn I gotta give all of them time like I'm like respect I mean I get it I get it but god not for any other reason not for any other reason 2k well that you can't be having all the

[00:50:17] people women on your line I mean that's what that's what the bulls down to y'all these women on your line won't be player player that's my stuff I used to say you won't be play a play out here so I was like hey man

[00:50:33] I remember I used to try to do that shit when I was John living in my mom's house my mom favorite thing famous thing was like stop having more than one girl called my house I'm like why the fuck I'm supposed to have more

[00:50:47] than one girl I ain't say that but I was thinking I'm like what shit how the fuck I'm gonna do this you told me to enjoy life I was like I was like we're gonna give yourself and I mean my parent

[00:51:05] I'm not gonna say my parents were like um big advocates of like oh yeah have more than one woman they were just big advocates on if you're going to if you're going to settle down with this woman at least make sure you explore what you know

[00:51:21] and what you like and don't like my mom you mistaken my mom not want me doing that she said stop having more than one girl called my house yeah well I guess I ain't really had that many people calling the house or at least not why my parents

[00:51:37] are home because once they got home they like they knew not to call the woman calling the house was like a job like after six o'clock don't call the house I'll call you you know you know like it wasn't because you know one

[00:51:53] my dad might have been on the internet so you know the line was you know saying two then you know I can't get to the phone faster than I got then I got here and called my name something such on the phone for you

[00:52:07] and then my mom bein like well that don't sound like the last one that called so yo I'm older I wish my mom woulda said so what are you I ain't cutting this girl's right there again so I you know I just

[00:52:23] you know the end of the day I was just like you know yeah once once once it got to a certain age and I was like alright well I'll just call him on the phone when I got timed and that's what I did

[00:52:39] and then by I think by like 1112th grade I had a girlfriend anyway so they knew who she was so she could call the house but that was who they expected to call the house so it was just like alright well

[00:52:53] because I didn't want to hear my mom talking about something hey don't be like your father and have you know be a rolling stone so as always playing in my head about what she talking about so it was always something listen my I just as a lure

[00:53:09] when it came to girls and dating and shit is so up and down and backwards you'd be like all this shit contradicts itself and shout out to mom it did it very well did all of it contradicted itself I couldn't

[00:53:27] had too many girls called the house there were girls that she liked there were girls that she didn't oh you can only be on the phone for five minutes I don't know like this stupid I'm praying this shit at different times I'm waiting for a call

[00:53:39] you got five minutes no no no no no no no this is not even that each phone call I only want you on the phone for five minutes like stupid shit like that I'm like yo are you making it hard for me to talk to these girls

[00:53:51] I'm like am I here I'm like you making it hard for me to talk to these girls I'm gonna find a way I'm gonna find a way it is see yours is different than mine my step dad I'm gonna call from Southern Sats about this house

[00:54:07] four hours ago by you be like yo did you get your call nah I didn't so you get on the phone and it'll be like damn they got and then every time you hear the little beep in the back hold on hold on hold on

[00:54:21] and you click hello hello guys alright and then like oh man the call came in he on the phone for an hour and a half I'm like they couldn't you've been waiting three hours for this call now

[00:54:37] you're gonna hold up the line for an hour and a half listen you might as well like that was before see kids don't know how bad we had it you couldn't even text your girl be like yo he on the phone I'm out there to you up tomorrow

[00:54:47] you just had them in like fuck it yeah maybe I'll see you at school tomorrow exactly ain't that right Mrs. Smith I had my own line oh oh boo she had a fuck it was still on the same line huh man I had my own phone

[00:55:17] number but it was on the same line so it didn't matter what was going on what is that I'm poor what is having your own number but on the same line what is that you had different ring to it so I never do that

[00:55:33] and the one for my and the one for my sister had three rings so it'd be like so you know how it goes then it was like and then the other one was like so phone did weird shit like that I never knew that

[00:55:51] yes your mom just didn't want to pay for that I just kind of thinks my mom ain't want to pay for I already do that God damn hey man it happens man so we had two lines in the house and my mother's line I had my own number

[00:56:07] where it ranked white and then my sister she was like fuck that and she just got her own line upstairs yeah but yeah but ours was still on the same line so even if you got on the wifi it just wouldn't come through on the

[00:56:21] two lines pretty much that's and it ends up where it is like but there was separate number so we knew like I could never remember the number so I couldn't get people that number so I knew if the car was for me but I just gave him the

[00:56:37] regular house number like fuck it what am I doing all this for I had to save up money to buy sprint PCS phone alright just to have prepaid just so I can be on the phone on that bitch after nine that's how bad I had I had to

[00:56:57] at certain times you would take the phone off the hook damn I had to I had to I'm glad her phone that's what I did I'm glad her phone yeah it was the times I had to do

[00:57:11] I did that shit too my mom was like did I tell you hang up my phone I'm like God damn I'm trying to get on the phone you won't leave your phone off the hook I don't know that was the old school dude that disturbed right

[00:57:25] I'm picking up my fuck up on the first ring look that's the problem it wrong her phone and I was she was on bottom plug her phone turn off her tv close the door and the phone would ring if you wouldn't hear

[00:57:45] see look the sophistication of the do not disturb back then but here's the pages of my mom though like all she had to do was turn her ringer off it was like two phones in the house turn her ringer off in the room and then

[00:57:57] I'll take the cordless phone and in my room in the basement and that'd be that she would never fucking hit her phone ring but instead she like I'm gonna take this bitch off the hook nobody's calling hey man she says she don't be

[00:58:11] she don't be wrong out her sleep listen she wasn't sleeping I know I pissed my mom off when I was a teenager because each and every time she tried to figure out the way for me not to do something I figure out a way to do it yeah

[00:58:25] in the most respectful way I ain't never rubbing in her face or anything like that but I'm like yo can't get on the phone boom found a way to get a phone you know how the fuck did you get a phone at 15 I'm like hey

[00:58:35] hey look if you ask if you ask your mom she'd be like I knew that's what you were doing I just allowed you to do you know that's what she's gonna tell you no she knew I had a phone

[00:58:43] because she asked me about it I was like I got it she's like you're paying the bill I'm like yeah she was like okay one time she tried to punish me to take the phone from me I was like I paid for the phone

[00:58:55] you can't really take that from me she got so fucking mad at me so fucking mad I was like yo I'm going to work I got my little part time what you want me to do yeah I remember when I got my first phone oh man

[00:59:13] I got my first sprint phone sprint flip phone shit was loud as shit I didn't even have a speakerphone on it that phone was so damn loud it was almost like a built-in speakerphone to it like that's how loud the phone was like yo those old

[00:59:29] phones and destructible man so when I got the phone my step dad was like oh you want with Sprint so that means you make enough money that you can do this this and this I'm like what how does that correlate to anything it was like at some point

[00:59:47] no one should do nothing fun like yo let me live a little bit knowing that I don't have any responsibilities because when I become an adult the responsibilities will hit me over the head as a teenager I should not day in and day out be hit with

[01:00:03] that wasn't me being a teenager that was when I got the college I didn't get my first phone so I got the college oh god damn so he was like oh well you know because he wanted me to go with I think T-Mobile or somebody

[01:00:17] you know the irony of it is Sprint was brought by T-Mobile but I mean 100 years later yeah he wanted me to go with T-Mobile he was oh well you know you know Sprint's expensive and if you can pay for a Sprint phone then

[01:00:33] that means you can pay all of a sudden all these other things I'm like what? he's like oh you can pay for this you can pay for this well technically it was something like oh you don't need no money for a school you can pay for that yourself

[01:00:51] you know you don't need to use our car you can pay for your own car you can come like wait how does me getting a Sprint phone correlate to? I don't know apparently you spent $1 a month for a fucking phone apparently that's what he thought

[01:01:07] that's I guess so but it was one of the things where it was just like even after the fact and I was like fine I'll just take the phone back like I was like the stress wasn't even worth it at that point

[01:01:21] like I was going to take the phone back like now I don't need it then I was like you know what why am I doing that just so that I don't and I'm like especially when you were pretty much you know you could be a girl man

[01:01:33] yeah and then because it was like you know in looking back especially at that point in time anything he didn't want me to do that he didn't agree with it was always to discourage me from doing it so like when I decided

[01:01:47] you know when I got hired to go and teach it was like well I think you should stay at McDonald's well why well you know in case you gotta get the work you can take the bus or he didn't want to take he didn't want to take me

[01:02:03] that's not like some shit my mom would say too and I'd be like lady come on man and I told you me and my mom had came up with the plan that when I got home from school I was going to put my walking shoes on

[01:02:15] and I was going to walk to work it didn't matter if it was rain sleet of snow I was going to hike that shit to work every day yeah so oh wow on that note shout out to parents for forever being an inspiration to fucking

[01:02:38] better ourselves because there's no way I was living under the regime of my mom any longer than I had to so shout out to them I would not be the today without her inspiring me to want to do better for myself so I never

[01:02:58] have to deal with that shit again I love you for that mom oh man what's out here getting emotional got a couple tears in the sky no it's out of it's out of sight too oh my oh my go on and say it like I'm not

[01:03:16] thinking about it like yo think about it personal development is the only thing that gets you out of your parents house yeah so if it wasn't if it was nice and cushy there and it was just like oh no that's probably

[01:03:30] how some men that's probably how some grown men don't ever get out their mom's house I am so glad I'm not one of them men I did on that note thank you right for tuning in hopefully this has been entertaining for you guys as it was for me

[01:03:48] and see you next time